June 28, 2005

Tonight marks the 2nd anniversary of my brother, Jeffrey's, death. It is very hard to describe just how I am feeling right now. This has left such a huge hole in me that I am afraid will never be filled. I just hope that maybe something good has come from his death. Maybe one of his friends thought twice about getting behind the wheel after he/she had had one too many drinks. Maybe one of his friends remembered to put on their seat belt when they got into the car. Maybe one person came to know Christ as their Savior because of him. I can only hope that at least one of these is true. I guess if it did then it would make more sense to me and it would all mean something. I guess I will not know until I get to Heaven myself. Until then, I continue to miss him every day and I just hope that where he is that my love can finds its way to him until I can see him again.